That Time I Thought I Wanted Money

Money! It was on my mind all the time. I felt an anxious kind of "thirst" for it, a term Jess Lively likes to use. I was working for a company that was totally draining me. Really, this job sucked so bad. I'm talking emails and slack messages at 3am, weekends and holidays. I got knots in my stomach every time I checked my phone. (It was a remote job.) The worst part was, it wasn't even making enough money. For months, my constant desire to the Universe was, money, money, money. I didn't want to quit that job because then I'd be in an even worst place, right?

Then something unexpected happened.

That company I worked for offered me a raise and a promotion.

There is was. The answer I've be begging for. More money! Wish granted!

But then... why did the though of saying yes to the promotion fill me with a deep sense of dread? I looked back on my time with the company. I was so unhappy, gaining weight and not spending time with friends. The thought of committing more time and energy into that company in exchange for more money made me want to weep in the fetal position while downing a pint of coffee ice cream.

...And that was the moment I realized that I didn't want money. Let me repeat that. I DIDN'T WANT MONEY. Not really.

I wanted happiness.

Yes, money is important, but happiness ranks higher on my values. Plus, I believe I can make money in other places (like this super-fun website or a different, more joyful job). So I quit that company right then and there, and started focusing on my business dreams. I had to make some changes in my life to make the money thing work, but those changes ended up being kind of amazing. (I moved in with Mom, got a part-time job summer job driving a van in Alaska, and planned a trip to Bali where it's $300 a month to live pretty well... but I'll save that for another blog post.)  

Basically, more money wasn't the answer for me. (Maybe it is for you, or maybe it will be for me in the future, but at that point in my life, it wasn't.) My happiness needed to be my priority. Big time. Once I shifted my focus to my happiness, I was able to open my mind to new possibilities for ways to change me life to support my goals and dreams. 

I don't want to always live at Mom's house (and if I did, Mom would be like, "Ummm... can you not leave your crystals and podcast microphone the kitchen table? K thanks.")  and I don't always want to be living on the cheap, but for right now, that's my happiness. 

And if you do happened to need some fast cash, below is a fun infographic for manifesting some financial abundance! 

If you didn't read my last blog post, it's on how to create your own personal development spell. Click here to read it! 

Thanks for reading and have a magical day! 

Julie